Well, here it is the 28th of January and I’ve almost missed out on the link-up with Sheryl at A Chronic Voice. Each month Sheryl hosts a link-up for chronic illness bloggers and provides some thought-provoking prompts for us. This month’s prompts are no exception.
The beginning of a new year is always so exciting. I love looking ahead to all the promise the year before us holds. This year, I guess I’m being a little selfish. I’m looking forward to moving out of the rut I’ve fallen into with just making sure I don’t do anything that might ‘upset the apple cart’ and cause my symptoms to get worse. I’m ready to take a chance on getting out and trying to do more of the things that make me really happy.
This year, I’m dedicating more time to the people and activities I love. As anyone with chronic illness knows, we often have to pick and choose between “good” and “best.” I tend to be a people pleaser, so I spend a lot of my time on activities I feel I “should” do rather than those I really want to do.
Although I’m sure I’ll still participate in some things that are expected of me, I’m going to do things that bring me joy with the people I love — family gatherings, fun outings with my hubby (such as going to Cinn City), and teaching my Life Group on Sunday mornings — and learn to just say no to those things I don’t want to do.
I’m still working on establishing a schedule for my blog work. Who knew there was so much involved in blogging? When I started this blog two years ago I naively thought that all I had to do was just sit down and write. Boy, was I wrong about that!
Establishing a workflow schedule is helping me get everything done that I need to without being on the computer all day every day. Of course, the schedule works under ideal conditions, but when I have a problem, such as the eye issue that limited my work last week, things just don’t get done. You know what? I’m learning to be okay with that.
This year, I’m breaking up with fear. My word for the year is courage, and ever since I determined that, my resolve to be brave has been tested. Having courage, however, doesn’t mean never being afraid. It just means carrying on in spite of your fear.
One of my favorite Bible verses is from the book of Joshua. It says, “This is my command — be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 (NLT) I’m keeping this at the forefront of my mind as I confront any of those ‘old friends’ of fear or discouragement. The Lord has blessed us far too much and protected us through far too many harrowing times for me to live in fear of what could happen anymore.
In addition to strengthening my resolve to do more of what brings me joy this year, I’m working on strengthening my body. I joined the Spoonie Yoga Tribe with the Sleepy Santosha a couple of months ago, and I’m really enjoying the feeling of regaining strength and flexibility.
She has a 30-day consistency program that I’ve been following. The practices are short; some of them are only five minutes, which allows you to slowly build up your strength, stamina, and of course consistency with your practice. If I don’t feel I can do the practice for a particular day, I just do another practice from the calendar. I’m feeling stronger already!
As I said earlier, this year I’m allowing myself to say no to things I don’t want to do and yes to the things I do. I’m starting to test my limits more because I said in my last post, although my self-imposed restrictions were absolutely necessary in the beginning, now they’re starting to keep me from actually getting out and enjoying all life has to offer.
I’m not taking any huge steps outside of my comfort zone, but I’m allowing my comfort zone to expand by doing more and seeing what happens. Rather than allowing my fear of feeling worse to keep me from doing things, I’m experimenting, and if the experiment fails, I have my ‘comfort zone’ of the things that I know work to fall back on.
Many thanks to Sheryl for hosting our link-up again this month! If you’re a chronic illness blogger and would like to join in, please visit Sheryl’s link-up post. We’d love to have you join in!
Do any of these prompts strike a chord with you? If so, please tell us about it!